too long to remember

It has been too long to remember the last time I posted on here! I went back reading some of my older post...when I first started this blog, after loosing my brother. It seemed so long ago, maybe months...but not 5 years! Wow, alot has changed in my life since I first started blogging. I got married, cheated on, seperated, moved back home to moberly area, fell in love again, and had a baby, filed bankruptcy from mistakes with my soon to be ex husband. oh and started my own business, forgot to mention that

~takes a death breath~

WoW!!! That is so much to go through with in such a sort amount of time! I have to say though, I love how my life has blossomed! I love all my mistakes I made in the past, because I knew what to stay away from in my present! My son, Cole is almost a year old now! It just does not seem possible!

I still miss my brother very much, and tears flood my eyes as I am finish typing this, but it does get easier. Or maybe I have just numbed myself of it. Either way I still think of Cory every day almost. Cole looks so much like Cory when he was a baby, I just think of how much Cory would have loved Cole...and how much he would enjoy spending time with him. makes my <3 smile a little....

Well...til next time!